Afterwards
Lisa said I had to
She didn’t want you
Couldn’t keep you
She didn’t want you
Couldn’t keep you
Anymore
Her insistent demands
I held
Despite myself
Against
Your rich grey coat
Against
Your shy ways
As if your own
Small
Form could hold
All
The reasons
All
The buried angers
Of which you
Were no part
And I
Held so tight
In the end
Left only with
Regrets echoing
Into your absence
And
I held too
Against you
All
The ways I didn’t
Know how
I wanted
To be
In love
With you
And so
After you
Asking little
Are gone
All that remains
Your touch
Lingering
This remorse
After you
Asking little
Are gone
All that remains
Your touch
Lingering
This remorse
If only I had
Known how
To forgive
Myself
You
Lisa
Known how
To embrace
Sink
Deeply into
The silky thick
Luxury
Of You
To have held
You
Really
